Tuesday, November 10, 2009

Been awhile...

Sorry it has been so long since I've been in here.

It's been a busy time, and a bit of a sad time. I got my work hours cut back, and I've been trying to find something to do to replace the income that went away with the lost hours. No success yet, and I'm beginning to get worried. No. I've been worried since I found out about the cut, but I've been trying to remain positive.

That's difficult to do, especially while also dealing with the emotions that are coming along with the approach of the first anniversary of my mother's death, now less than a month away.

Sometimes I think I'm doing so well, and then I get hit with all those emotions again, all those memories. I try not to let them get too out of hand, and I try not to bother my friends with all of it too much. They were such a help during the time before and after my Mother's death, and I don't want to burden them with how I'm feeling now.

By the same token, I don't want to come over here and be all whiny and depressing and anxiety-ridden. Makes for boring reading. But I've been distracted with everything and so haven't spent much time looking around for interesting things to share.

I hope things start looking up soon.

I plan to write more often, whether they do or not.


McMGrad89 said...

Well, I understand exactly how you feel and often find myself going somewhere or hearing something that reminds me of my father. People are used to seeing me teary-eyed from time to time.

Best wishes on your job search.


WaltzInExile said...

Delurking because this post absolutely needs responses. You have my deepest sympathy on the loss of your mother. I can't come up with any words of comfort to offer you, so please don't be weirded out as I get up in your personal cyberspace and (((HUGS)))
Best of luck with the job situation.